Little Boy

I have totally shut down the aim of getting a PHD. Now, thinking of which path to go. Give me some times, .

Is already four years here, and it is times to move on. I will be moving to a new company soon, doing the same thing, "research". This time must really serious about really working mode during the working hours. Can't waste time during office hours, so that i can relax after working hour. That is the attitude, and i think that is the way it should be.

2nd of April, i will report to my new job. New enviroment,...COOOoooool.

This is the first time we are doing this at home. It turns out quite nice and should do it quite often...hehe

Yes, i do understand sometimes we need to covers the truth or present ourselve in other way, but not too much man. I have a friend which did it in a way that i feel it is too much.

If we truthful a bit on our speech, i think it is really a good start. People will appreciate who we are, and i feel if we are truthful, it actually can strenghten the relationship rather than putting a shield towards us. This friend is really too much, too much.

But anyway, it is really nothing to do with me, but i feel it is just not right and nice to find out this type of another behaviour of human.

And also we should support our frenz if he/she doing well. But sometimes ppl act on diff other way round. Very funny, mayb is the human evil, envy and greedy. HAHA

Life still goes on, and the phrase always right, "we not only want to live long, but to live well". Sukihotu.

Some photos from christmas gathering:

I can't remember i am so religious last time....haha

If one people says something is wrong, and maybe it is not wrong. If more than two persons say something is wrong, then it maybe wrong, but maybe correct also. But if a lot people say it is wrong, then a very possiblity it is wrong man, don bluff ourselve.

This is happening in my organisation. Every month, usually two times i will hear someone is leaving...and leaving. And the HR is busy recruiting new people. It is really something wrong. Really wrong.....

I think everyone has reach the limit as i was reaching that day. I will soon be release also.....thanks god....thanks god that i finally make up this decision.......... only now is when is it only...but will come,.....that wat i know.......................

I waste my whole day correcting the stupid correction done by so called people has post in academic. Keep changing my grammar and add s at the front, and change the meaning of the programming question. And keep saying that why so late only give, btw i oleid give him early...only he no time to look at it...and saying the people in UK are not free in this month coz of christmas.....walao...christmas is at the end of the month lah........................


I really spend the whole day changing all this nonsense and the worst change the meaning of the question (programming question). They really turn my programming question into essay question. Tat kind of mentality how to stand anymore.

I am giving up ...really giving up....time to think of the offer given by one DR. in somewhere. I need to think about it. Is time to leave....is oledi four years....and the worst is four years without knowledge

Soon will say goodbye to 2006 and welcome 2007. Time really flies fast but as what i always keep telling myself, that i not only want to live long, but to live well. Although time flies really fast, as chinese says, you just close and open back your eye, it is over and it is really over, as long as we live well then it is still alright.

As I just join the academic, i am invited to join one of the reduction programme. In one of the programme, there is one personnel trying to show how long that he is working as that post and doing the same throughout the six years. For him, he is very proud that he has gone thru a lot of things and have a lot of experience, that is SIX years. I think others may think it is great to have that type of experience, btw the job is coordinator.

But for me is a shame and really a shame. Come one, six years you still at that post. This type of example i put as time really flies very fast. Hahaha.

For 2006, i think i never really do much thing. I use half year to complete the license plate recognition system, and others is more to involve a bit there and here, in academic in rnd. Really nothing much...

A frenz of mine send me this song "ai de dai jia" by zhang ai jia. It is one of my old song that i like very much. Sincerely, i dont understand the lyrics inside this song, but the music is already able to touch my heart and penetrate into it deeply. Thanks my frenz.

May i ask how many % is actually effort and how many % is actually luck. It seems i don't have luck on my side, and i don wan to depends on fate anymore our what we call luck, or wat people call it as karma. I wan to push more on effort since this is the thing is still under my control.

I have waste too much time, although the wasted time i still get something. But it should not counted like tat, coz the thing that we got at that time may not be useful. For example, no point of knowing how to fix a car, if what we know is to drive a car and buy a good and quality car.

I want to stay focus now. For a short aim, i would like to focus in building myself in terms of knowledge. Two aims basically, get my PHD in short time (don't care other thing) and earn more money with less spending. Basically, money coming from salary and part time teaching in apiit. Teach more part time, yes!

Others stuff than this, i really don wan to care. Hehe......

Just want to do some recollection ...after counting and counting, really not much to collect...tat is really a joke. Is it i started to be lazy here, or influence by the working environment here or i am giving a lot of excuse here. No matter what, thing that has past i will let it go.

But i want to plan the way forward and i promise myself to go thru each month meaningful before i take more drastic step to look at each week. For the coming december, i would like to finish up my phd proposal and start up my phd programme with USM. The second thing is i want to master the basic modules that appear in the multimedia cluster and finally i want to save about RM5K. Three aims, hope i can reach them with my both hand.

ya, everyone has different road to their home, and also everyone also has different road in their life. Some they just wake up, prepare food for her husband, send kids to the school, and come back prepare lunch and dinner, and every day thinking how to take care well of their kids....that is the wholelife road of a wife (yellow face lady)

And some is wake up, go to have breakfast, and step into the office and work whole day until the end of the day, and the next morning do the same thing again. That is the road chosen by a workaholic.

Then, what is your road then?

I can't believe that moving to academic is actually has more workshop to attend. This is because in academic, we only have class for 4 and half days, which the second half friday is a flexible day without any class.

What is this workshop? This workshop will not be conducted if APIIT has minimum number of foreign student. But nowadays, APIIT has about 40% of the student is actually not local. So this workshop actually create a space for us to discuss and debate over certain arised issue. Anyway, our objective (means APIIT) is to meet 70% of foreign student, maybe by next year.

So the lecturers includes me, are assigned to varius group. I "drop" in a group of lecturers which i seldom talk with, means not same geng lol. Luckily, it turn out to be alright as they are not that of serious type. They are david foo, rohaini, suja, sunita and saranjit. Our topic is lecturer and student rapport. Wow, what a big word of rapport, what is that means. As i told myself to be truthful, so i ask lah, what is the meaning of rapport to get thing right at the beginning mah. Finally, i understand it means bonding or relationship. So generally the topic is regarding how we can strenghten relatiohsip between student and lecturer. We are lucky to have rohaini, a malay lady, which is very outspoken. So basically she lead the way and we chip in ideas. Quite a lot of idea we give, as i give mine also. Basically, they agree of some of my idea, and i quite happy as i feel i in the group. Aiyoh, although i am stupid but still got a bit of brain mah. Finally to decide who is the speaker, so the three ladies pushing to each others (suja, sunita and saranjit, wow really the three S'). Then after pushing pushing, it ended to me. Aiyah, what big deal of presenting, so i say why not. Maybe you will say i am the victim, but i don't think so. I am given the opportunity to presence myself or to tell the academic as i exist. With the bless from the god, i make a good remarks on this day. I AM SATISFIED with my presentation. It is very improtu as u know lah, one of my skill is non-stop talking. Talking in a short time is really a challenge, but talking in long hours is one of my skill lol. Actually i drag about 10 minutes lol, as the presentation actually about five minutes. But, who care, as the audience able to laugh and feel my humour. Not of my face, but my points sound lah....muahahahahahahahahaha

Anyway, if you ask me what i got from this workshop. I can say i understand the academic better and know who like to give ideas and who can give great ideas. Can say is a politic review on the academic department? I think can lah, as one of my hobby is analyse people and predict their behaviour. It is very interesting wan, as the sun tzu war rules you have to know your enemy if you wan to win the battle mah.

And of course, in the group, i able to break the ice with these few lecturers. None of them from my cluster, which a not a good new turn to be a good new at the end. My influence circle is expandking now.

Enough of today lol, later have to lecture master class, it is an intensive class. Almost every evening. Gosh. GOD give me strength lol....

Seven years in degree and master, does the knowledge bring me anywhere. Is chay koay teow skill is better than the seven years knowledge. Sometimes i really think so. God, tell me what should i do.....

I take the courage to participate although with zero knowledge. If i win, the world is very very not fair, anyway i will not win coz i can't under their difficult question. But for next year i will be more prepared. DONT WAN TO SAY MUCH, I WAN TO BECOME A GOOD DEVELOPER SOON. No interest in management stuff.